Sneezing and Suppositories

So yeah. What is the outcome when you insert a vaginal progesterone suppository and then have a substantial sneezing fit? Just another priceless infertility / IVF moment. A gross, gross moment.

In more significant news, embryo on board.

Minor Meltdown, Nothing Trivial

I’d be lying if I said I was not freaking out right now.   I am calm, but I am worried sick.

This morning, my lining was at a 10.6 and I was given the green light for transfer. Tomorrow.

Cue the tears… on and off, for 3+ hours now.   Thankfully (?) It has yet to escalate into snot sobbing.

It has just been a long 3+ year journey to get to this exact moment AND I assume (hope) the damn Estrace is making me hyper emotional too?

The Pain in My Arse

I was pretty cocky after my first PEO shot in the buttski.  There was no lingering pain at all.  Sitting was fine and I was strutting around going “I wonder what all the fuss is about?”

We had followed the advice from my friends regarding the administration of the progesterone, with ice to the area, inject, massage the area, then apply heat.

For day 2, we followed the same routine and…

Fast forward to this morning and when I attempted to roll over in bed and I screeched in pain. Shortly thereafter, my acupuncturist rubbed the same spot and I screamed so loud there was a response that I could be scaring her other patients.

So yeah.  The progesterone in ethyl oleate is kicking my ass.  Literally.

If I get knocked up there will be 7+ more weeks of this, which is fine really, because the ends here justify the means.   However, today as I was strewn out across the acupuncture table with needles poking into my flab, I had a bone deep feeling the transfer was going to fail.

I hate that I cannot seem to be positive about this process, but I just cannot seem to find that headspace, at all.

This is How I Feel.

A bullet list of what’s goin’ on:

    • We have a date for transfer. We’ve hand picked the doctor, the uterus whisperer, and he of the highest transfer success rate at our clinic.   This is a “perk” of being a challenging case.
    • We have agreed to participate in an study wherein, prior to said transfer, they will wash my uterus with HCG. Rumor has it this will aid in embryo implantation. That would be fantastic.
    • I have another lining check tomorrow. On Monday, my lining was at an 8, type 1. After the check, we will sign and turn in our consent forms.
    • While my uterus is very compatible with Estrace, my head is not. I am still suffering from horrible headaches and significant exhaustion.   They upped my dose yesterday too.  Bastards.
    • The balance of my meds were just ordered. Including but not limited to, Neevo for the MTHFR and more Lovenox (always Lovenox). Progesterone in Ethyl Oleate to commence on Friday. Righto.
    • This upcoming transfer (our first) will take place approximately 15 months after our first RE appointment, 3 IVFs, and a lot of heartache.
    • And at this point, there is nothing else we can do to guarantee this embryo will stick.