I returned to the infertility clinic this week and had a complete meltdown culminating into days of anxiety and a lot of very painful tears. I can only attribute this to the fact that the last time I was at the RE’s, I saw my dead baby on the ultrasound screen.
Lately I haven been struggling with that fact that a significant percentage of the “friends” I’ve met via online infertility support groups have all but disappeared from my radar. The majority of these women are pregnant, and I guess they have moved on? The loss of those interactions has been difficult. The few that I was very close to have retreated significantly and that has been particularly painful. My RE told me she doesn’t think these type of support communities are healthy for someone who has my level of infertility and I have to conclude she is correct.